Monday, September 18, 2006

This Isn't About Me and You, It's About People

Sarah is in bed, asleep and under the covers. Jacob enters the apartment and closes the door behind him. Sarah shifts around, but doesn’t wake up. The apartment is one room. In the open space, Jacob would be able to see Sarah’s hair and naked back, if it was not so dark as it is.
The typewriter on the floor, the sharp-angled corner shelf they’ve never put up, the bookshelf that attempts to divide the bed from the rest of the apartment––Jacob curls his toes under his thin feet in case something has moved. On the far side of the bookshelf, Jacob undresses. Jacob drops his clothes onto a pile of Sarah’s clothes.
Sarah is still asleep even though she’s throwing the covers aside for Jacob and moaning, as if to say, “get in, so we can sleep.” Jacob gets into the bed and pulls up the covers. Sarah turns onto her side and curls up. Jacob’s feet and hands are cold. Jacob puts his hands onto Sarah’s thighs. Sarah gasps. Sarah immediately pulls away. Sarah is a dog running from a car accident in shock, running along the highway, running towards the cars, running with blank open eyes. Jacob turns onto his back with the indignation of an athlete muscled into throwing a match.
One before the other, the two fall into sleep and find each other’s bodies at some point in the procession of dreams.
...I’m having nightmares
...About what
...Nothing
...I’ll protect you from nothing

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...mmph

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Ockham's Razor (a song for Angel Band)

How many steps to heaven must I take?
Ockham's razorblade keeps me from my fate.
Oh what a blind, a senseless thing I am:
I cannot find my home.
I cannot find my home.
I cannot find my home.

I wish I were a bird, I wish for wings;
I wish anything could be just as it seems.
Oh what a blind, a senseless thing I am:
My heart has holes that never end,
I cannot find my home.
And when I close my eyes, I see
I cannot find my home.
I never am just where I am--
I cannot find my home.

(bridge- syncopated vocal ahhs or instrumental in minor or diminished key)

Incredible, this gray drowning ballet--
Lord, please clear away these dark and dying days.
Oh what a blind, a senseless thing I am:
I won't be filled by jubilee,
My heart has holes that never end,
I cannot find my home.
The blind men all wear paper clothes,
and when I close my eyes, I see
I cannot find my home.
My compass spins and disappears,
I never am just where I am--
I cannot find my home.

(1/2 bridge)

As heavy years and miles fill my wake,
Ockham's razorblade still keeps me from my fate.
Oh what a blind, a senseless thing I am.
The silverware has turned to dust,
I won't be filled by jubilee,
My heart has holes that never end,
I cannot find my home.
The dreamers dream a house of cards,
The blind men all wear paper clothes,
And when I close my eyes, I see
I cannot find my home.
I seek a place, I know not where,
My compass spins and disappears,
I never am just where I am,
I cannot find my home.
I cannot find my home.
I cannot find my home.

(1/4 bridge followed by oohs ensemble)